Date: Wednesday, June 27, 2007 Time: 15:40 T.T ![]() the picture is in credit to artist from deviantart just came back to singapore on sunday night and i am really hating life here. school is alright. i mean at least i can laugh with friends and feel happy in school. but once i step into boarding school's gate after school, my mood would just flip 180s. just can't stop tearing whenever i start talkng to my parents, grandparents or my cousin...sometimes even the thoughts make me tear... I REALLY REALLY WANT TO GET OUT OF NANYANG BOARDING SCHOOL!!!!!! sorry for spelling it out full, i may get into trouble by doing this but i really really don't care. this is the first time ever i am feeling this way. it has really really never ever happened before. i had stayed in much worse condition before but i remember nothing bad about the place. maybe it's because i was with mum then. seriously i think having someone whom i love and loves me would help alot. really wish that mum can be here now. i don't mind taking buses and reaching home lately, working really hard and become a super mugger, or not having or getting the clothes or accessaries or things that i like or i want, let me stay at my own house and be with my family. i will be contented. i know i have to try to be jian1 qiang2 and be dong3 shi4, shouldn't let people worry about me and stuff. but i really can't stand it anymore! i can't bring myself to act like a robot. i want my home here. and nanyang girls boarding school can never be compared to a home. you can't imagine how much i am loathing the place now and there's absolutely no way you can bring me to like it. |