Date: Saturday, October 11, 2008 Time: 14:22
totally embarrassing... things happened in these few days really got me reflecting. i guess i want a taste of everything. to think of it, the whole point may be just to be able to be in line with everyone else. there is no one single day i would want to remain aimless, a walking corpse i would feel. maybe it's because of the lost focus, or maybe, it's just something inborn. i cant really help it. sometimes all we wanna do is to have fun. throwing away all the responsibility, disciplines. i think getting drunk is ugly. that's why i tell myself that i can never. sometimes i get really disturbed by the thoughts or sights of certain things. ugly things in general. selfishness, possessiveness, inconsideration, immature, ugliness in human nature. i don't like them. but i have to learn to adapt to them because they are in every one of us. maybe im just overly selfconscious. |