Date: Saturday, October 18, 2008 Time: 11:54
i am suppose to go for class outing today but cuz i really had too many things to do, i have no choice but to give up the fun ): well actually i just want someone to be by my side so that i will not stay in the drained out mood. was really really disappointed at my aep ilp results and felt like killing myself after i got to know that the whole purpose of consultation was for you to convince mr dan to give you a more deserving score. well obviously i didnt do that, i was alil too stunned at the score (1 mark to a B). he said quite a number of ppl got A. well if that was the case, i have to say that i dont deserve a C.there were so much that i wanted to say but at that moment, after all the huge blows of other papers, i was really just too tired to say anything. so i left. without even trying to convince him! i really don't know how much smarter i can get.... well after consultation when i went back to class bench, tried looking normal, with wilson and poon telling me random things, laughing at stuff etc. it feels really bad when you have to pretend that nothing happened and look happy. i can don't cry in deep depression, but i couldnt help it whenever i pretend. oh anw THANK YOU KARLTON! (((: just realised that i have completely entirely gotten over someone. when that i saw that name, i didn't even have any feelings or expectations. well it took me quite some time huh. it takes someone to replace someone else.probably not a personal effort after all but i am still glad. |