hate this hate this HATE THIS

can't even get anything done can't focus can't do anything well

omg i am so hopeless and stupid nothing is gonna work out im just sitting here on my ass without doing anything about it but i dont know what and how to do anything at all

i so hate myself seriously

what's gonna happen to me?what what what. but i dont want to know cuz it's not gonna be good.

)))))):

this is total frustration

and

i am missing you missing you missing you very very very much ok

ha. idiot.

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