i guess i didnt have the same kinda feeling for singapore cuz i know all those friends i had there would always be there, the more important ones at least. but here, it's different. i can't be sure. i dont feel that i have that same kinda grasp on them. it's scary to think that some of them, after i leave, would no longer be part of my life. they would be gone. like they never even appeared in my life ever.

i keep telling myself that i would just let it go because it doesn't even matter. but whenever this idea of the possibility of these few months disappearing creeps on me, i would wanna try all that again, so as to make an impression, to make a memory, to make it alil more meaningful.

it scares me