let me know if I'm being too hard on myself.
let me know if it should not have been this way.
something's just not quite right. but i can't put my finger on what exactly it is.
there was a time. when i thought that's over. that i thought oh finally.
but then/no longer.
maybe after all/that basic joy is the most complicated/for that's always how things work
what's being myself?
i don't even know anymore.